wel life takes wonderous turns still no concrete info on my heart problems but soon i at 42 will be an apprentice meat cutter they are gonna let me play with large sharp knives im stoked actually doin some art work but no carvings now for 6 mths maybe a regular schedule will help me with motivation who knows an no ill never learn to use punctuation????

lets see cutting fish isnt supposed to be stressful but hey what do i know ,just spent the day in er connected to more wires than a robot for a possible heart attack am i not supposed to work? is this life telling me that i should follow art or should i slow down and be only a pee on ,most people that work where i do take 2-3 years sometimes 6 to get full time it took me only 5 months , plus they are already talkin bout a promotion ,i dont know any advice out there????

so theyve done it again left my sketch book in my van whilst at work and some rock hoppin smacklickin dead man walkin waste of flesh broke in stole my bag containing all my sketches from last 3 mths a bunch of finished work 5 graphic novels a anime reference book all my graphics pens and almost all of my pencils not including of course a pocket knife breath mints with a bit of paxil in it for a tough days they allso got my variety pack of creatocolours leads just purchased and experimented with minamally ahhhhhhhhh , so went out spent 68 dollars on stuff i cant afford just to get me started again there were carving tools worth hundreds under a blanket so count my blessings i guess excspt they threw garbage all over the inside of my van oh yah also took some of my vintage pipes ,crack heads

there are times in this life one one must just cut the fish so thats what im doin cuttin halibut salmon trout and other wonders of the universe sub marinara or perhaps garlic rosemary gonna take some pics at work for submission textures and colours can be wild

well im a little frustrated i had a bunch of stuff to add to my page was just bein lazy when my vehicle was broken into , my scetch book all my graphic pens and pencils two wonderful carving knives ,plus aalll my lulliby ,wraithborn and other graphic novels were taken as well as my sa70a sony cell phone ,(with the only copies of my wonderful zen kitty of 19 yrs sydney in it ,he passed on last year)plus it was all stored in a leather shoulder bag that id found in a second hand shop for 20 bucks ,hand stitched thick flexible portugese leather a beautiful deep red brown (was perfect been lookin for this sucker since high school ) i know its just possessins and only materials but gaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrr , welll guess i gotta start over ,my wonderful wife bought me the divicci sketch book to work in so back to the grinding of mars pencils and fleshing out new projects soon to come the troll protector of the sketch book and his pals lol ,sorry for ranting ,namaste